Just been out with my dogs for a walk. If I am being honest I wasn’t really feeling it today. I had a really lazy day yesterday and did nothing at all. Felt like I needed a rest, but at the same time I felt like I wasted an entire day of my life, which I will never get back!!
Why is it whenever I have my headphones on while I’m walking, I ALWAYS bump into fellow dog walkers by the lorry load?! And every single one of them will want to stop and talk to me!! If I forget my headphones, I NEVER bump into anyone to talk to!
Oh man, I’m really not feeling myself today. I’m having one of them days when I just want to be on my own. I talk to people because I have to. Not because I want to. Twice, I did a 180 degree turn and walked back in the direction I came from because of the fear of having to talk to some random dog walker who just I didn’t want to. Call me unsociable if you like. But that my little Pedigree chums is anxiety for you…
I have to stay positive though. I used to get worse days than this. Every day was worse than this for a couple of years solid. I know I should be proud of myself, but still I wish I didn’t have to have days like this ever again. The weird thing is, if I had gone for a walk yesterday I would have been fine. Not exercising causes me to spend far too much time with my anxious mind. If I keep my mind busy and occupied, I always come out on top. Lesson learned anyway.
I’m really enjoying writing about my day to day life at the moment. My therapist recommended I did something like this months ago. She said she sensed I had a creative side to me. Oh well hopefully it doesn’t bore people too much. If it does, you know what to do… If you enjoy my blog please give me a follow, like and share whatever you can. It would be very much appreciated, as always.
Have a good day.